Slow Show

I rewatched this old movie the other day, Sweet November. Really not impressed the first time I watched it. But I was bored, and it was on. What do you do?

Maybe I’ve changed or grown or something in between, but I liked it.  Liked the message.  Liked that loving someone, your relationship with them, that it was perfect in some infinitesimal way, could be your immortality.  Sweet and sad.

Talking to a friend on the phone, and she told me how glad she was that we met.  That she learned about the kind of life she wanted from seeing the choices I’ve made.  Not sure if I should take that as a good sign.  I hope so, though.  For her sake, at least.  I mean, right?

I’m a bit of a fixer. I find people who are broken and bring them back from the edge.  In the course of which, I’ve somehow become the poster girl for making the right decisions.

When I hear anything to that effect, I smile and say thanks, of course, because it’s the polite thing to do. But something in me has to fight to hold back nervous laughter.  I can’t decide if it’s a house of cards I live in or if it’s all just smoke and mirrors. I mean, which metaphor suits my life the best?  Suggestions?

I started writing again. Stories I mean.  I write short, mostly unfinished, stories.  My junior (okay, and freshman and sophomore) year of high school my English teacher warned me of my tendency to tell instead of show.  I’m lousy at showing.  And I resent that someone told me that when I was young and impressionable.  As though it portended my lack of success, something I couldn’t get past.  And I haven’t yet.

Of course she was trying to help, but positive affirmation really works best.  Don’t you think?

On Sunday, I asked the man who owns the gas station I frequent if he celebrated Easter. He told me that the Hindu people are taught to accept all paths to God and look at other religions without judgment.

Then he said, “So, yes, we celebrate Easter.  And anyone who doesn’t is stupid.”

Yeah, I had to think about that one for a minute, too.

Here’s the song I’m playing on my iPod this week… love it!

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